feeling it at 2am in the morning.

i dunno what i'm feeling to be honest.
it's just one of those nights
i imerse myself in emotions...
just feel like writing a new song.
where's the time gone?
i know i'm happy.
at the same time...

Thanks howard for the music,
and the movie.
just one of those movies that
wake you up at like 4am in the morning
that prompt you to do something out of the ordinary.
right? haha

for me. i guess.

so slowly i release my knowledge of being
and allow my crazy senses to take over.
i'm all girl and I'm just having
my own ball
in my own world
dancing to my own beat and appreciating the beauty around me.
wondering why i feel warm being in another's arms.
wondering why i love what i can't have.
knowing that it's not always what i'll want.
thinking about times in the future where i'll be more.
more respectful.
more secure
more filled with love.
more purposeful.
then i realize that i've got the rest of my life ahead of me.
then i realize i'm turning 20.
and i remember when i didn't think i'd live that long.
rock guitars play in the background and yet the emotional words get me in a way rock music isn't supposed to.
goosebumps!
the air-con blows at my bare skin and i read what i've written.
what a waste of time and emotion.
alright. i'm going back to work!
thanks for sharing 14 minutes of my life that i'll never get back again!
don't worry, no regrets. haha
i love you ALL!
i'm feeling christmas SOO much it's crazy!
*tingeling feeling*
oh yea baby!
this is what the good lufe should feel like :)

-deeadora love