a light peeps from under the threateningly large pieces of hanging cloth
that separate us from the group of strangers and friends that trickle into the theater.
standing furthest from the edge I look in front of me and while everyone's doing what we do everyday in the studio, I can't help but smile.
realizing that sometimes I don't know a good thing when I've got it.
Familiar faces on a stage that we barely know, and yet we take comfort in the fact that soon we'll be on it in front of people we might or might not know,
and talk to them with our bodies. hoping they listen.
It's been a long time since I've felt like this.
It's been too long.
Something's starting and I'm more than inclined to follow it's lead.
I'm done waiting for people to take the lead. to show me happiness,
All I need is within me. I hope.
And all I need to be happy is right in front of me.
I love you guys. (you guys = NRA)

:)

there's really no one else to blame.
because when you assume things are going to be different you take a risk.
being a risk taker i know that i'm very likely on the losing end of the 50-50.
so... i'll just disappear and do what i do best.
feign indifference.
and bet on the odds you'll never know the difference.

with the heat behind my ears.
it spreads beneath my skin like wild fire
urgency pushes my emotions so strong
my body can't function because it's being pushed beyond what it understands
dont stop.
i'm pass regular understanding
pick up and ignore reason because in this place no rules apply.
pull and push and anything but stay still.
close my eyes and get lost in everything that i can't explain
but are more real than anything that the world has given words.
let go. let loose and yell till you forget what your own voice sounds like.
play the music... keep the music going.
because only you and music can do this to me.


if i could just see you, everything will be alright.

oh my gosh. I'm shaking now.
Thank you guys so much for voting. seriously. this means SO much to me.
I'm really really happy you guys like the song. Suddenly I've been given motivation to keep going.

Unfortunately nothing much has been happening in my life right now
but with the RP and studio wu dance gig approaching, things are starting to look up.

Thanks again for voting... :)
i really can't express how I feel right now.

hey dear! here you go :)

Doll

In her window,
she smiled to everyone.
the world before her was so kind.

All the people would walk by,
and look at her,
and everybody was so nice.
They'd sing,

Look at the pretty doll in that window,
mama.
Look how happy she looks today.
I want the pretty doll in that window mama.
Then they'd turn and walk away.
Walk away.

Ten years later in her window she stays,
her smile a little faded.
The world around her has totally changed,
she looks around and it's not long before,
the children sing.

Look at the toy guns in those windows,
mama.
Look at the bare-bellied dolls,
what is that ragged thing in that window,
mama?
Then they'd walk right along,
they'd walk right along.

This isn't what I'm used to, she cried.
I didn't move, I was here all the while.
How did this happen,
why didn't I ask why?
Why didn't I ask why...

And they'd sing,

la di da di da di dum,
da da di dum, (x5?)

suuuu!! wink at what ahhh!! haahhaha

will update soon :)

peace out guys.

dee

Your song playing on radio and finding out it might hit the top 20 charts...
after realizing that just a couple of days ago you mentioned to a friend how impossible hitting any charts could be for any of your songs.
it is... sweet. so ... so sweet.
THANK YOU everyone for requesting for my song on 98.7fm...
for buying the album... for all your support. you have NO idea how much this means to me.
I will continue to work hard. I promise.

soooo if you want to help me get my song on the charts....
SMS Top20 your fav song your name & IC, and send it to 72346. Each SMS is 30cents.
haha i copied that from the 98.7fm website..
but really... PLEASE vote!! and tell ur friends to vote too!
i will buy you all dinner after ok? hahaha

:)

for Xiang Tian here's the lyrics for little love song :)

Little Love Song

Woke up this morning
with a smile on my face.
Woke up knowing that
today was gonna be okay.

Cuz I got you,
never thought I'd find someone like
you've found me and there's nothing you could
do to make me love you less,
I can't help but confess
I love you.

It's not like everything
in life is easier now.
But you let me say
all that i feel out loud.

It's just amazing,
I'm hooked onto your touch,
it's just so crazy,
I can never get enough.
Wish you were with me,
everytime that I got up.
It's a drug, you're my drug
I'm in love with you.

Cuz I got you,
never thought I'd find someone like
you've found me and there's nothing you could
do to make me love you less,
I can't help but confess
I love you.


thanks again guys :)
love
dee

hi. what's new?

when you have nothing to do, you realize you miss being crazy busy.
when you're crazy busy you realize you miss having nothing to do.
when you're single you crave to have someone to hold.
when you do have someone to hold you're worried about them letting go.
when you're hungry you want to eat everything
after you've eaten everything you feel bad for eating so much
when you're away from your family you get so home sick you wish you had never left
when you're with them and they upset you, you wanna run away.
i fall, i get up
i make mistakes and I learn. I keep learning.
I keep falling and I'll keep getting up.
There's always something to do.
but I don't feel like doing it and complain I have nothing to do.

I am officially confused.

But I have you. So i reckon I'll be okay :)