well...

this kinda wouldn't be so bad
if i kinda didn't expect you to care
more than you probably, actually kinda do
because then i wouldn't be kinda
disappointed that you don't
but maybe it's my fault for kinda assuming
or hoping that you would
so i kinda guess it's my own fault that
i'm kinda out-of-it because
i kinda wanted something that
i kinda thought was there, but kinda isn't.
which kinda sucks.


i hope you're confused *evil grin*